Heartless

Dying inside. I'm broken. I don't know what's going on in my life. I'm not the old one. I want Aimi who is laughing, smile when things going down. Not the one who is giving up, crying over a little things. I need someone who I can share all this fucking problems. But I don't know who she/he is. Did someone want to hear all this problems ? Did someone sincerely want to go through all this things with me ? But why should I waste my time talking to people who ignores me. I feel like I am no longer happy as before. My smile, my laugh and everything about me seemed fading away. I hate myself for loving someone so much. If only I can turn back the past. But life must go on. I really need someone to cheer me up right now. Everything so messed up. I'm constantly feeling alone.